"Mea Culpa"

It was stupid, just plain stupid. Sitting in Question Period on Monday, I was suddenly asked to fill in on a committee a few minutes later and was provided some briefing notes. Hastily perusing them in preparation, I barely noticed Conservative John Baird rise up to answer a question. My mind was in neutral, and suddenly, without hardly noticing it, I heckled Baird, yelling out that what he was saying just wasn't fair. My first sign that something was out of place was when I saw the people all sitting around me staring in shock. In an instant, I realized what I'd done. I usually refrain from saying anything in QP because, well, it's theatre and I can't stand the shallowness of it. Others believed that of me, too, until Monday, when I loudly stepped out of character.It's so easy to make excuses here: everybody does it; nobody really cares; John Baird deserves to get what he gives; the atmosphere in QP in the House just got to me. None of these things were true. I just blurted out something in a mindless state, and in so doing I became part of the very problem I denounce repeatedly in these posts. Yesterday, during QP, I sent a note over to John, apologizing for my actions and poor behaviour. He looked up, smiled in his congenial way, and waved it away. It helped, but not a lot. A hypocrite is still a hypocrite.  I also apologize to the good people of my riding for acting in a fashion beneath what they expect of me.  Mea Culpa. Bad on me.